Europe, please!

Hello, my friends :) Today was one of the strangest days I've had ... Europe's been on my mind and beating loudly in my heart. You know when you feel like your insides are going to come out, like you're going to burst if you stay in one place? That kind of thing. I was reading the Bible this morning, really reading it for the first time in a long time, and the sky was grey, and for a second I was right back in Ireland and outside were people with amazing accents and old, wonderful buildings I'd never seen before and entire cities to discover...it was full-blown nostalgia, and I think this was the beginning of my restlessness.

Afternoon brought an unexpected wave of loneliness, and the realization that the hole in me was so huge, no one person could fill it. I didn't know what to do with myself - couldn't decide whether to stay or go, so I ate lunch at a park in Seattle, fleetingly wondering if the men leaving their group in the woods one by one were drug dealers, and returned home to Lynnwood. A long nap made me feel like like *I* was on drugs...

I can't settle down tonight. Web-searching for pictures of Dublin has replaced the homework I should be doing. I can't stay, and I can't go, and my heart's full to bursting and I don't know what to do. I'm sick of school, but know I need to finish the quarter. Even the thought of facing tomorrow has me in a tailspin... I want to sit on a chair next to the street and pretend I'm old and have all the time in the world to dream.

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