Just random stuff

Alright, now for an update! It's been awhile since I posted, but I don't think anyone minds too much :) Lately, I feel neutrally bouyant. You know in middle school science classes, how there's a tank of water and some things are positively bouyant and you can't keep them off the surface, and some are negatively bouyant and sink straight to the bottom. Me, I'm kind of floating in the middle, and it's a long way to the bottom and to the top. When I think about my life, I get kind of overwhelmed... it's scattered, it's not in neat little compartments. Which I think is what I've wanted all along, but it's a little hard to define sometimes, and sometimes I like definition. I have been working, which is wonderful. And I am learning to use the register, so I don't feel like a fifth limb hanging off the person I work with. Fifth limbs historically have not been very useful, and even have a tendancy to get in the way. Yeah. So I'm starting to feel like a whole person at work. What else... I miss my friend Jessica. I haven't seen her in ages. I've been attending Bethany Community Church in Greenlake, which is an adventure in itself. I'm scared to invest and "put myself out there" (there's got to be a proper way to say that) but I'm trying to overcome my hesitation. It takes a lot of work to start new relationships and become part of a new community. I have no idea what God has in store for me there. This week I've been wandering aimlessly around my house, doing chores halfway and eating out of boredom. Ahh, for school to start again... I have a love-hate relationship with that thought. I'm still asking God what He'll have me do after I graduate next year. So far, all foreign countries (okay, there are a few exceptions) are still equal intriguing to me.

I am in love with the youth group kids and am blessed everytime I hang out with them, because their community reaffirms God's existence and love. It's amazing. God is amazing. And now it's time for a nap.