tons of blessings today

I'm sitting here using my new upstairs internet connection. Friends stopped by before youth group and installed this for me...I had no clue they were coming, and it was such an awesome surprise.

I took a walk when I woke up, a rainy European morning. I loved the weather today, which leads me to blessing #2: I wasn't depressed at all when I woke up to grey skies. A HUGE improvement over earlier attitudes.

Birds singing outside, even in the evening dark. Smelling freshly-baked cookies, supposed to be vanilla but taste like sugar cookies, wonderful all the same. I had a good time reading through Hebrews with Katie Pedersen today. Totally confusing but really good to be reading the Bible. A short chat with Jessica on her break, and no more bangs in my eyes.

I'm making small, underneath changes in my attitudes toward things. I'm struggling to deal with my mom dating and being gone every night. I pictured how when she walked out the door to go to dinner, I would say "Have a nice night!" with raised eyebrows and a smile so maybe I'd convince even myself that I meant it. The truth is, I miss my mom. Even though I'm 21 and should have a life of my own. I know, I know.

Realizing that my passive-aggressiveness finds release in eating crappy food I don't really want and I'm not hungry for. I need to speak, honest words, instead of stuffing my face.
But life is good. That's all I have for now. God bless you guys.