I haven't posted lately - been too concerned with the daily living that I haven't had time to step back and make swooping generalizations and ask myself abstract questions :)
Tonight, though, I'm totally overwhelmed by God - at how He's given me faith this week, and worked out the problems I've faced with my professors as I try to convince them to work with me for my Thailand trip. God reminded me that He never said this would be easy, and by His grace, I haven't let mean people drag me down this week. A wonderful talk with my T.A. today, and as an added bonus, I met a girl from Australia ;)
A week, you guys! A week and we're off to Thailand...I feel like I've spent so much time sorting out details for going that I haven't actually thought about the trip itself. Does that make sense? I'm getting excited, though. I really want to expect a lot from God - I need Him to help me dream. I don't want to be such a realist (about the shortness of this trip, the fact that I don't feel called to Thailand) that I forget child-like excitement that keeps me up at night.
One more thing I'm reminded of this week...I can't make decisions about my life and schedule based on what my friends, or family, or society says I "should" be able to handle. This week, God's expanded my capacity for doing a lot of things everyday, and I've had a great attitude. A miracle, I think. Usually I spend time busy, frustrated and resentful...or lazy - and guilty about it. I need to take my cues from God and listen to my body and mind telling me when enough is enough. When I need to stop. Even if everyone else would call me lazy. Maybe I can only handle school and one job a week - I need to be okay with that. I'm not accountable to them. This is good news for me :)
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